People often think that I have no struggles in life; that everything is smooth sailing for me, that I am strong enough to face whatever comes. If only they knew the truth about how weak I am, about how I struggle so much, about how easily I go astray. Truly I can stand and say that without Him, I am nothing.

As I look back on my life, I realise that all the major breakthroughs in my life have come not from myself or as a result of my doing anything, but as a result of God working steadily and slowly, often using external things, notably people, to help me and guide me. It is very humbling, and at the same time very comforting to know who is control. I have come to realise that I would much rather trust in Him and leave it all to Him, than trust in myself. I often cannot see beyond the day ahead of me, and can only live in the moment as God guides and leads, living each step by faith; often I wonder and fear if I am going astray, if I am doing something wrong. But at the points of breakthrough I look back and realise that God has always been at the stern, patiently guiding and leading me. He is in ultimate control. We could write a book full of our worries and anxieties and doubts, and give it to God, but He would simply put it aside gently and say, "I am in control."

I would not have the courage to write about faith if I have not experienced the reality of God's control in my life. It is in our nature to doubt, but that is where we must exercise faith. Like a shepherd guiding a fearful, bewildered sheep through a dark valley He gently leads us on and never lets us go. He will do it for You.