Well after 5 months in the army, I'm finally out. Thank God. But, like in many other times, there was no great sense of jubilation, no outbursts of happiness. Just the quiet thanksgiving in my heart to God for having brought me through, and the deep sense of anticipation at the next phase in life that God has in store. Indeed ever since I disrupted on Saturday I've been zooming around, and haven't had any real time to sit down and rest. Unexpectedly I discovered that I have to attend the Public Service Commission Pre-Departure Course until 26 July; had to shelve all my previous glorious plans on how to spend that precious month of holiday. Tonight I just have a few minutes to write this entry before I zoom off to OBS tomorrow morning.
But if there's one thing that has remained ever so clear in my heart and mind, it is the depth of the love of God that He has revealed so magnificently to me during the past few months like never before. Now I can truly understand why Paul would say that he rejoiced in trials and tribulations; in the midst of the darkest night, the wildest storm, God's love shines like a glorious beacon of light that will never die or fade, ever leading us onward. "Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, anda light unto my path." Psalm 119:105.
I wonder why sometimes there seems to be a shortage of joy in my life, and now I know why- those were the times when God's love slipped back in my heart and mind, and was replaced by other lesser cares. It was during those times that God's love was foremost and so strong in my life, and I depended fully upon it, that my joy was fullest, fuller beyond any I have ever known. "As the Father hath loved me, so I have loved you; continue ye in my love... These things I have spoken unto you, that my joy might remain in you, and that your joy might be full." John 15: 9, 11. How true the words of our Saviour! Let Him be your all in all, let His love be your everything, and you will discover that joy that never ends. Such that even when we face the toughest trials, we can be "troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed." 2 Corinthians 4: 8-9.
There is so much I want to share; in time I will. But this is the greatest lesson that I have learnt, about the greatest Love that we have and will ever know.
"How excellent is thy lovingkindness, O God! therefore the children of men put their trust under the shadow of thy wings." Psalm 36:7
But if there's one thing that has remained ever so clear in my heart and mind, it is the depth of the love of God that He has revealed so magnificently to me during the past few months like never before. Now I can truly understand why Paul would say that he rejoiced in trials and tribulations; in the midst of the darkest night, the wildest storm, God's love shines like a glorious beacon of light that will never die or fade, ever leading us onward. "Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, anda light unto my path." Psalm 119:105.
I wonder why sometimes there seems to be a shortage of joy in my life, and now I know why- those were the times when God's love slipped back in my heart and mind, and was replaced by other lesser cares. It was during those times that God's love was foremost and so strong in my life, and I depended fully upon it, that my joy was fullest, fuller beyond any I have ever known. "As the Father hath loved me, so I have loved you; continue ye in my love... These things I have spoken unto you, that my joy might remain in you, and that your joy might be full." John 15: 9, 11. How true the words of our Saviour! Let Him be your all in all, let His love be your everything, and you will discover that joy that never ends. Such that even when we face the toughest trials, we can be "troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed." 2 Corinthians 4: 8-9.
There is so much I want to share; in time I will. But this is the greatest lesson that I have learnt, about the greatest Love that we have and will ever know.
"How excellent is thy lovingkindness, O God! therefore the children of men put their trust under the shadow of thy wings." Psalm 36:7
